A Rustling

The trick. The trick is to be content where I am while still looking ahead hoping for change. Unrequited. Unsettled. Tossing. Turning. Disturbed. RESTLESSNESS. I just want change lately. Change on the inside of me, change in the atmosphere around me. Change in my friends and my family. Change in the world. A God change. A SHIFT in the spirit. RESTLESSNESS. It finds me often lately. I like where I am now but I am aching for something to MOVE, tangibly. In my mind, heart, and soul...in my life..something around me to SHIFT. I'm waiting for the secrets He told me to come to pass...WAITING....activley....maybe not so much patiently but at least I'm waiting and not running ahead.

...maybe it's the books I've been reading that stirs it in me...books like The Vision and the Vow by Pete Greig. I have strayed from talk like "a generation is rising up" and "new wine is being poured out" stuff like that. I think because it gets me really hyped but I then I go back to the mundane of my life. Rita and Steve gave Matt and I a word that we were most definitely called to work with the youth. That we would be forerunners. I'm starting to realize why I like young people so much. It's because they are CRAZY and BOLD! I think their audacity is SO precious to the Lord! They aren't afraid to let God out of the box and I believe there is a generation coming that won't even have a box!! I like their crazy faith. They haven't learned they can't change the world yet and I hope they NEVER do...and I hope I never do either. They are those that would pray ALL night and the night after and the one after that just to see Him come. Their hunger stirs heaven. oh man....I just LOVE them.

So heavily on my heart lately has been the issue of prayer. Prayer ushers in moves of God and I want Him to MOVE....so I think I know what I have to do. I know I'm just one girl but who cares?! I find myself thinking "why not?" a lot lately. I can't leave this area as much as I want to sometimes...I know He told us to stay at least for a time. Jesus turn your attention towards us! Let us catch your eye, let us catch your attention and let your heart beat be heard over the northeast... I just want Him to come...and break open heaven over this area and I think I know it's going to come from the young kids and young adults. David killed Goliath... what if he thought he couldn't? What if we think we can't when we really can?

I was driving home from work the other day and I was thinking about all the people I admire and look up to that I follow on Twitter. Someone said to me "You will never meet those people, what's the point in following them?" I started to agree but all of a sudden I felt a swiftness dance across my heart..."why not? Why couldn't you meet them one day? Anything is possible!" This is a really weird example but point being I feel like the Lord keeps saying, "why not?! Anything is possible!" Get CRAZY! Dream Big! If Jesus can change the world though twelve fairly uneducated men, if the Pentecost can come in a tiny insignificant upper room, if a mortal man can walk on water (now that's crazy...or is it?) then maybe insignificant people and do crazy significant things through Him. No not maybe.. we can. I mean why not?! ...there it is again that restlessness...I can feel it.

"Happy am I to lead a hungry life
blessed am I to thirst"
-Misty Edwards

Comprehending

Things He has been teaching me lately:

1.) To forfeit His presence just to gain the approval of men is absurdity. If we do this, we will be giving up much to receive much less.
2.) If you are in Him then everything you do is holy.
3.) If God made it to be that way then that must be the best way.
4.) If He wants me to let go of something it's probably because He wants to give it back to me in a fuller measure.
5.) Trust is belief and belief is rest.
6.) Resting (peace) is the most effective type of spiritual warfare.
7.) Things that are added are not earned and things that are earned are not added. God will add unto me all that I need and more but I will not have to strive for them, because then they would not be added. (Matthew 6:33)
8.) He sees no blemish within me.
9.) Feeling God is ok
10.) You cannot just know what is right. You have to have the discipline to actually do what is right.
11.) If you touch and influence man's heart, you may not touch God's heart. But if you touch and influence God's heart you will almost always touch and influence man's heart.
12.) Sometimes when we feel set aside it's really because He has set us apart.
13.) His love for us is as strong death, his jealously for us is as demanding as the grave and the flame of His love for us will passionately burn even amidst many waters. (Song of Songs 8:7)
14.) His timing is not our timing.
15.) The deeper you really believe God truly and fully loves you is in direct proportion to how much power and love you will walk in.